Thursday, March 29, 2012

FAMILY

  THE BLACK FAMILY TODAY IS A DISAGRACE FROM ALL LEVELS CAUSE OF THE DEADLY SINS THAT PLAQUE OUR SOCIETY. DURING SLAVERY THE BLACK FAMILY WAS SOLD SEPERATELY TO HELP THE MASTERS ON THEIR PLANTATION SO IT SHOULD’VE BEEN 300 YEARS OF REBUILDING THE LOST STRUCTURE OF THE FAMILY. I AM A PRODUCT OF A FAMILY OF DYSFUNCTIONAL INDIVIDUALS THAT  TRY TO ACT LIKE THEY CARE BUT TO ONLY BACKSTAB AND SABATOGE THEMSELVES THROUGH JEALOUSY, ENVY, SELFISHNESS AND THE DEADLIESTS SINS OF THEM ALL, MONEY and GREED!!!
       HOW CAN THE FAMLIY BE REPAIRED WHEN THE CONSTANT ISSUES WITHIN HAS DONE NOTHING BUT SPOIL THE GENERATIONS NEXT TO COME. YES I’VE BEEN DISOWNED FROM MY MOTHER’S FAMILY CAUSE OF RACE. SO HOW COULD SOUTHERN FAMILIES MAKE A CHANGE WHEN THEY CAN’T EVEN UNDERSTAND THEIR OWN FAULTS. HOW WOULD MALCOLM OR MARTIN FEEL ABOUT TODAY IF THEY WERE ALIVE??
     MY FATHER’S FAMILY IS SOMETHING I RATHER KEEP TO MYSELF CAUSE ITS NOT WORTH MY FINGETIPS TO TYPE. FOR THE PAST 20 YEARS I’VE BEN USED, ABUSED, MISUSED, BAMBOOZLED AND SCREWED LIKE A  FIVE DOLLAR PROSTITUTE AND IT HAS MADE ME REALIZE THAT WHO NEEDS THAT WHEN YOU FAKE INSTEAD OF BEIN REAL WITH THE FAMILY. NOW IF ANYONE IN MY ENTIRE FAMILY ARE OFFENDED ……..BE LIKE MJ’s SONG, MAN IN THE MIRROR BOTTOM LINE.
      AS I SIT HERE LOOKING OUT FROM THE CALIFORNIA MOUNTAINS AND JUST THINK OF HOW FAMILIES WERE THE STRENGTH OF ALL SITUATIONS BUT NOW ITS A PURE JOKE!!!!  AS TUPAC STATES IN THE MOVIE, “ABOVE THE RIM”, “Just cause you born into family doesn’t mean you stay family” AND PERSONALLY THEY DON’T CARE ABOUT NOBODY OR NOTHING BUT THEY WANT CALL YOU OR EMAIL YOU WHEN THEY IN TROUBLE BUT WHEN YOU NEED THEM ITS ANOTHER STORY.
 TO ALL FAMILIES OF THE FB WORLD TAKE A LOOK INTO YOUR HEART AND SOUL AND THINK WHY THERE IS NO UNITY WITHIN THE FAMILY STRUCTURE AND DO YOU THINK OUR ANCESTORS APPROVE OF THIS CONSTANT BROKEN ISSUE WITHIN OR JUST TAKE IT TO GOD FOR THE SOLUTION.

REDEMPTION(My dedication to the memory of my maternal grandfather......25 years later)

Originally written December 2010

As December approaches I’ve finally feel redemption for the fact a quarter of a century ago my grandfather, Kenneth Wilbur Terrell(1920-1985) suddenly passed away after pancreatic cancer treatment. The memory of that day is still vivid with the cold and rainy day of December 23rd with a sudden sound of thunder and the flash of lightning that almost blinded me. So that moment I felt him leave me but he appeared later that night in a vision of an angelic glow to assure me everything will be alright. For the next 24+ years I realize how I despise the holidays cause I see fakeness from family to so called friends and they use that day as a day of Christ’s birth and Santa Claus. I have to say I truly thank God for the incredible journey to be alive a quarter of a century and understand my redemption and destiny in life. Thank you Pop for always bein there with me from the wrestling ring to the music industry. I hope to see you at crossroads of Heaven with all the loved ones who awaits my arrival

I'm Proud to Be Part of My Mixed Heritage

       FOR MOST OF MY LIFE I’VE HAD MANY PEOPLE WHO SAY THAT MY HERITAGE IS BLACK ONLY BUT TO ALL YOU IGNORANT PEOPLE YOU BETTER THINK AGAIN. MY PATERNAL GRANDMOTHER WAS WHITE/CHEROKEE INDIAN AND IT SHOCKED THE HELL OUT OF ME KNOWING MY BLOOD HAS WHITE IN THE MIX ALONG WITH AFRO AMERICAN AND PROBABLY OTHER ETHNICS. SO SOME OF YOU KNOW MY MARRIAGE IS BY AN ITALIAN-IRISH AMERICAN FEMALE WHICH OUR CULTURES CLASH BECAUSE OF TRADITION BUT MAINLY IGNORANCE. THE DAY I TOOK A PICTURE OF HER AT 18 THE KIDS RIDICULED ME BUT I LET IT BE KNOWN I WAS PROUD TO BE WHO I WAS.
        I WAS BORN WITH A MIXED HERITAGE FROM MY MOTHER WAS BORN IN THE SOUTH AND MY DAD WAS BORN IN THE NORTH SO I ‘VE HAD THE BEST AND LEAST OF BOTH WORLDS. MY BIRTHPLACE(D.C.) IS WHERE I LEARNED THE VALUES OF TRUE FAMILYHOOD AND WHAT TRUE MEANING OF BEING A CHILD WITH DIFFERENT HERITAGES. WHERE I GREW UP(NORFOLK, VA. BEACH, N.C.) WAS MY TRADITIONAL UPBRINGING ABOUT WHAT WAS ONCE TRUE SOUTHERN HOSPITALITY WHICH NOW IS A BIG FAT JOKE DUE TO MY FAMILY DISOWNED ME BECAUSE OF MY MARRIAGE.
       PRESIDENT OBAMA MADE THE STATEMENT ABOUT HIS WHITE GRANDMOTHER WHO WAS AGAINST THE TIMES THAT MADE HIM UNCOMFORTABLE AS A YOUTH. WE SHOULD STOP TO REALIZE WHERE DO WE COME FROM ORIGINALLY I KNOW ABOUT 6 GENERATIONS FROM MY FAMILY IN THE SOUTH AND MY PEEPS IN D.C. HAVE BEEN RESEARCHING OUR FAMILY TREE FOR NEARLY A DECADE SO WE’RE VERY MUCH INTERESTED IN WHAT THE PAST HAS TO SAY. TO THE GENERATION TODAY DON’T DISRESPECT A WHITE PERSON WHO COULD BE YOUR RELATIVE EVEN IF THEY ARE RACIST CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WE COULD BE RELATED TO.

SOMETHING 4 U MAMA(Dedicated to my mothers, Judy, Joyce, Mary, Zelda & Farrie Bell)

       I REALIZED WHEN I LISTEN TO “A SONG FOR MAMA” I GET TEARY EYED CAUSE EVEN THOUGH IT’S BEEN 20 YEARS SINCE WE LAST SAW EACH OTHER I STILL KNOW WE HAVE A CONNECTION LIKE MY MANNERISM, MY ATTITUDE AND HOW YOU FELT I SHOULD BE IN LIFE: A TRUE MAN. I’VE BEEN DEALING WITH HATIN YOU FOR LEAVING ME ALONE WHEN I KNEW YOU WAS TRYIN TO TEACH ME ON HOW TO BE A MAN AND WE KNOW WHEN YOU BECOME A TEENAGER THINGS ARE SO CLOUDY AND YOU ONLY THINK OF YOURSELF AND WHAT’S NOT IMPORTANT IN LIFE.
        A MOTHER IS A GEM, A PEARL THAT ONLY SHOWS YOU THE LOVE THAT NOBODY UNDERSTANDS NOT EVEN YOUR COMPANIONS OR SPOUSES EVEN UNDERSTAND BUT YOU HAVE TO LIVE LIFE AND BECOME A PARENT. SOMETIMES IT SO HARD TO CONVINCE THE PERSON YOU LOVE THAT YOU DON’T KNOW ME LIKE MY MOTHER. MY MOTHER IS A STRONG MINDED WOMAN WHO I FELT WAS THE FIRST PERSON WHO I CLASSIFIED AS THE TERM, “DIVA” AND SHE WAS MY EVERYTHING THAT MADE ME LOVE WOMEN FOR WHO THEY ARE TODAY. I’VE BECOME SO DEPRESSED AND FRUSTRATED THAT NOBODY CAN SETTLE YOUR WOUNDS LIKE MOTHERS OR GRANDMOTHERS THEY ARE THE QUEENS OF OUR HEARTS AND FOR A CHILD TO DISRESPECT THAT IS A CRYING SHAME.
         TODAY I SIT DOWN AND PRAY THAT GOD GIVES ME THE STRENGTH AND GUIDANCE TO LET MY MOTHER FORGIVE ME FOR THE WAY I WAS BACK IN THE DAY WHEN I DIDN’T UNDERSTAND LIFE UNTIL I GOT OUT THERE AND FULLY UNDERSTAND WHAT SHE WAS TALKING ABOUT.TODAY MY MOTHER IS A MINISTER SO I FEEL LIKE IT’S MY MISSION TO RECONCILE WITH HER AND JUST GROW UP. I HATE WHEN KIDS TAKE THEIR MOTHERS FOR GRANTED WHEN THEY DON’T REALIZE YOU HAVE ONLY ONE MOTHER IN THIS LIFE. I WAS TOLD THERE WAS TWO TYPES OF WOMEN TO BE MOMS, FIRST MOTHER IS THE BIRTH MOM WHO CARRIED AND NURTURED YOU IN HER BELLY FOR 9 MONTHS AND GAVE YOU LIFE AND THE MOMMY ARE THE MOMS WHO TEACHES YOU TO WALK , TALK AND GIVES YOU INFLUENCE ON BECOMING A PERSON AND TAKE THEIR LIFE’s LESSONS IN LIFE TO CARRY ON TO OUR CHILDREN. WHAT IF A MOTHER NEVER TAUGHT US THE SURVIVAL TECHNIQUES TO DEAL WITH THIS CRAZY LIFE?
         NOBODY CAN SAY WHO YOU REALLY ARE BUT YOU’RE MOTHER AND WHO CAN CHANGE IT. DON’T FORGET THE BIBLE SAYS HONOR HER OR YOUR DAYS GONNA LONG SO THINK ABOUT EVERY TIME YOU DISRESPECT OR HURT HER WHERE WILL YOU BE IN THE FUTURE? I’M SO BLESSED TO SAY THAT I HOPE SHE CAN FORGIVE ME AND JUST MOVE ON AND BE A FAMILY AGAIN CAUSE TRULY I WISH SHE COULD SOOTHE AND CALM MY INNER SOUL AND LIKE THE SONG SAYS YOU ARE THE FOOD TO MY SOUL. Dedicated to the women who put the strength and knowledge that became Lelund Hollins, I love ya’ll with all my heart and soul and I wish the ones who are gone were here so when things become so gray they can turn it into sunshine. I miss you ladies terribly and you’re never forgotten.

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A REAL MAN OR A REAL "NIGGA"?, PART 2

       WELL FELLAS IT’S TIME FOR SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT AND IT’S ABOUT A REAL MAN OR REAL “NIGGA”? WELL LET ME HIT YOU WITH PART 1: THE REAL NIGGA DO YOU GIVE UP, WELL IT’S BASED ON SO MANY SITUATIONS AND ISSUES. A REAL MAN SHOULD TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY OF HIS ACTIONS AND NOT BLAME ANYONE FOR IT. A REAL MAN SHOULD BE TEACHING HIS KIDS THE DIFFERENCES ABOUT LIFE AND HOW TO CONDUCT THEMSELVES AROUND ADULTS. TODAY SO CALLED MEN THINK THEY HARD CAUSE THEY GOT MUSCLES AND THINK EVERY WOMAN WANTS THEM. THESE ARE THE SAME GUYS WHO ARE QUICK TO STRIKE A WOMAN BECAUSE THEY THINK IT MAKES THEM A REAL MAN….NEGRO PLEASE!!!!!!
         SO THINK TO YOURSELF DO YOU HAVE A REAL MAN? I’M NOT BASHING MY HOMIES HERE ON TAGGED BUT I’VE ENCOUNTERED FEMALES WHO SAY MEN ARE THIS OR MEN ARE THAT BUT REMEMBER WE COME FROM GENERATIONS OF MEN EITHER MADE MISTAKES BUT IT WAS THE STRONG MINDED WOMEN WHO FORGIVE AND STILL TOOK SOME BACK. I CAN RECALL MY GRANDFATHER(MY DAD’S SIDE) CHEATED ON MY GRANDMOTHER MANY TIMES BUT HE TAUGHT ME TO CHOOSE YOUR DECISIONS WISELY WHEN IT COMES TO WOMEN. HE NEVER ONCE HIT MY GRANDMOTHER BUT DOES THAT MAKE HIM A REAL MAN FOR THE OTHER MISTAKES HE MADE?
       FELLAS WHAT MAKES A REAL MAN WHO CHEATS ON A GOOD WOMAN ? FIRST OF ALL WOMAN IS THE MAIN REASON WHY WE BREATH TODAY IT WAS WOMAN WHO TAUGHT US TO WALK AND PRETTY MUCH SHOWED US THE LOVE AND HAPPINESS WE NEEDED TO ADVENTURE INTO THIS WORLD. A WOMAN IS LIKE A FLOWER SOMETHING THAT HAS TO BE HANDLE CAREFULLY BUT THERE ARE SOME WHO ARE MORE MANLY THAN MEN. I FEEL IF YOU BEAT UP A WOMAN YOU’LL BEAT UP ANY WOMAN(MOM, SISTER, GRANDMOM, FEMALE COUSINS, ETC…) AND IF YOU SAY I’M LYING THAN YOU ARE IN DENIAL NO FORGET THAT…YOU’RE A BOLD FACE LIAR!!!!!!!!!
         A REAL MAN CAN COME IN AND CHANGE A WOMAN’S LIFE BY ACCEPTING HER FULL PACKAGE…HER KIDS? WHY NOT, WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE SPECIAL WHO CAN TEACH THEM TO SHOW A WOMAN RESPECT WHEN THE OTHER MAN ISN’T DOIN IT. A REAL MAN CAN WIPE AWAY A WOMAN’S TEARS WHEN THERE’S SORROW AROUND HER. YOU BECOME THE SUNSHINE IN HER LIFE. A REAL MAN CAN BE MISTER MOM BY COOKING, SEWING, TAKING CARE OF THE KIDS AND MAKING SURE THE HOUSE IS CLEAN AND HAVE A BUBBLE BATH READY FOR HER AFTER A ROUGH WORK DAY. SO DOES YOUR REAL MAN THAT FOR YOU OR DO YOU HAVE A SO CALLED REAL NIGGA? SO FELLAS TAKE A LOOK INTO A MIRROR AND THINK WHICH ARE YOU, A REAL 100% MAN OR A REAL 100% BITCH NIGGA!!? YOU KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE SO STOP FRONTIN?!!!!

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A REAL MAN OR A REAL "NIGGA", PART 1

         WELL FELLAS IT’S TIME FOR SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT AND IT’S ABOUT A REAL MAN OR REAL “NIGGA”? WELL LET ME HIT YOU WITH PART 1: THE REAL NIGGA DO YOU GIVE UP, WELL IT’S BASED ON SO MANY SITUATIONS AND ISSUES. A REAL MAN SHOULD TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY OF HIS ACTIONS AND NOT BLAME ANYONE FOR IT. A REAL MAN SHOULD BE TEACHING HIS KIDS THE DIFFERENCES ABOUT LIFE AND HOW TO CONDUCT THEMSELVES AROUND ADULTS. TODAY SO CALLED MEN THINK THEY HARD CAUSE THEY GOT MUSCLES AND THINK EVERY WOMAN WANTS THEM. THESE ARE THE SAME GUYS WHO ARE QUICK TO STRIKE A WOMAN BECAUSE THEY THINK IT MAKES THEM A REAL MAN….NEGRO PLEASE!!!!!!
         SO THINK TO YOURSELF DO YOU HAVE A REAL MAN? I’M NOT BASHING MY HOMIES HERE ON TAGGED BUT I’VE ENCOUNTERED FEMALES WHO SAY MEN ARE THIS OR MEN ARE THAT BUT REMEMBER WE COME FROM GENERATIONS OF MEN EITHER MADE MISTAKES BUT IT WAS THE STRONG MINDED WOMEN WHO FORGIVE AND STILL TOOK SOME BACK. I CAN RECALL MY GRANDFATHER(MY DAD’S SIDE) CHEATED ON MY GRANDMOTHER MANY TIMES BUT HE TAUGHT ME TO CHOOSE YOUR DECISIONS WISELY WHEN IT COMES TO WOMEN. HE NEVER ONCE HIT MY GRANDMOTHER BUT DOES THAT MAKE HIM A REAL MAN FOR THE OTHER MISTAKES HE MADE?
       FELLAS WHAT MAKES A REAL MAN WHO CHEATS ON A GOOD WOMAN ? FIRST OF ALL WOMAN IS THE MAIN REASON WHY WE BREATH TODAY IT WAS WOMAN WHO TAUGHT US TO WALK AND PRETTY MUCH SHOWED US THE LOVE AND HAPPINESS WE NEEDED TO ADVENTURE INTO THIS WORLD. A WOMAN IS LIKE A FLOWER SOMETHING THAT HAS TO BE HANDLE CAREFULLY BUT THERE ARE SOME WHO ARE MORE MANLY THAN MEN. I FEEL IF YOU BEAT UP A WOMAN YOU’LL BEAT UP ANY WOMAN(MOM, SISTER, GRANDMOM, FEMALE COUSINS, ETC…) AND IF YOU SAY I’M LYING THAN YOU ARE IN DENIAL NO FORGET THAT…YOU’RE A BOLD FACE LIAR!!!!!!!!!
         A REAL MAN CAN COME IN AND CHANGE A WOMAN’S LIFE BY ACCEPTING HER FULL PACKAGE…HER KIDS? WHY NOT, WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE SPECIAL WHO CAN TEACH THEM TO SHOW A WOMAN RESPECT WHEN THE OTHER MAN ISN’T DOIN IT. A REAL MAN CAN WIPE AWAY A WOMAN’S TEARS WHEN THERE’S SORROW AROUND HER. YOU BECOME THE SUNSHINE IN HER LIFE. A REAL MAN CAN BE MISTER MOM BY COOKING, SEWING, TAKING CARE OF THE KIDS AND MAKING SURE THE HOUSE IS CLEAN AND HAVE A BUBBLE BATH READY FOR HER AFTER A ROUGH WORK DAY. SO DOES YOUR REAL MAN THAT FOR YOU OR DO YOU HAVE A SO CALLED REAL NIGGA? SO FELLAS TAKE A LOOK INTO A MIRROR AND THINK WHICH ARE YOU, A REAL 100% MAN OR A REAL 100% BITCH NIGGA!!? YOU KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE SO STOP FRONTIN?!!!!

THE WORLD IS A MASQUERADE IN MY EYES SO WHAT HAPPEN TO US???

Originally written in 2011.....Revised March 29, 2012

      I REMEMBER AS A CHILD NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD AND THAT WAS WHEN THE WORLD WAS INNOCENT. HOW MANY CAN REMINISCE OF THE TIMES OF RESPECTING YOUR ELDERS AND FEELING GOOD THAT LOVE WAS NOT SO SERIOUS. I REMEMBER MY GRANDMOTHER DISCIPLINING AND THEN EXPLAINING WHAT I DID AND SHE STILL LOVED ME. I REMEMBER IN THE PROJECTS OF DIGGS PARK  IN NORFOLK, VA WAS WHERE THE SANITY OF SLIMM BIGGUMZ WAS BORN DUE TO THE FACTS OF PEER PRESSURE AND CRUELTY OF THE KIDS OF THAT TIME BUT WE ALL WERE NOT HATERS YET JUST KIDS. I REMEMBER WHEN CHURCHES WAS SO SACRED WITH LOOKS AND THE IMAGE OF THE CONGREGATION. SO WHAT HAS HAPPEN IN THE LAST 30 YEARS??? THE MUSIC AT THAT TIME FOR ME WAS ENJOYING REV. JAMES CLEVELAND, MAHALIA JACKSON, CLARA WARD, DIXIE HUMMINGBIRDS AND THE LISTS OF THAT TIME WAS ENDLESS. I LOVED TO SEE PEOPLE GET A HOLY GHOST AND FEELING THE SPIRIT CAUSE IT WAS AN EXPERIENCE FOR ME.

       THE STREETS BEFORE THE DRUG EPIDEMIC WAS A PLACE WHERE THE REAL SCHOOL OF HARD KNOCKS FOR ME AND I HAD TO FIGHT MY WAY TO SHOW AND PROVE I BELONG EVEN THOUGH I WAS CHURCH KID. THERE WERE MANY MOMENTS I WANTED TO HURT THEM BUT I WAS TAUGHT TO FORGIVE AND LOVE THEM CAUSE THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO. I REMEMBER FIGHTING ONE DAY AND THEN FRIENDS THE NEXT, SO WHAT HAPPEN TO THAT MENTALITY?? CHURCH WAS A PLACE TO FEEL SAFE FROM THE ILLS OF THE WORLD’S MADNESS. NOW CHURCH IS FASHION SHOW OF LOOKS INSTEAD OF THE WORD. I DO NOT REMEMBER LADIES SHOWING OFF THEIR CLEAVAGE AND DOIN ANYTHING THAT WAS SUSPICIOUS TO THE CONGRGATION. YES THAT LIFE WAS DESTROYED BY A SICK PERSON WHO ROBBED ME OF MY INNOCENCE OF BEIN A KID BUT I STILL ASKED GOD TO FORGIVE THEM EVEN THOUGH TO THIS DAY IT’S SO UNCOMFOTABLE TO SIT IN A CHURCH. SO I CHOSE MUSIC CAUSE IT NEVER HURT ME PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY OR SEXUALLY.

       TODAY THE WORLD THROUGH MY EYES IS IN THE LAST DAYS AND TIMES CAUSE WHAT HAPPEN TO OUR VALUES AND MORALS FOR EACH OTHER. BACK IN THE DAY IT WAS TABOO TO HAVE A GIRL PREGNANT IT WAS LIKE A HUGE ISSUE AMONG THE OLDER PEOPLE. IT WAS EVEN TABOO TO DISCUSS ISSUES LIKE SEX, DRUGS AND SACRED MUSIC. TODAY SOCIETY CONDONES THE ISSUES THAT HAVE DESTROYED MANY LIVES ESPECIALLY IN THE BLACK COMMUNITY. THE YOUTH TODAY DON’T HAVE NO CLUE TO HOW BACK THEN PEACE WAS A THING TO HAVE ESPECIALLY WITH GOD IN OUR HOUSEHOLDS BUT NOW OUR KIDS DISRESPECT US AS IF THEY NEVER HAD ANY HOME TRAINING. WHERE ARE THE ROLE MODELS THAT KEPT US GROUNDED FROM THE STREETS TO THE CHURCH. THE TELEVSION OF THAT TIME DID MORE TEACHING THAN EXPLOITING THE NEGATIVES OF THE WORLD WHICH WAS FORBIDDEN BACK IN THE DAY.

      I NEARLY BROKE DOWN IN TEARS WHEN SOME ARTISTS CALL ME A PHONY OR FRAUD TO AN INDUSTRY THAT’S MORE LIKE THE DAYS OF SODOM AND GORMARRAH. THERE HAVE BEEN BIG NAMES WHO PROMISE YO UTHIS DREAM WHICH IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN SINCE YOU HAVE TO GIVE UP SOMETHING TO GET SOMEWHERE. I’M A PERSON WHO CAME FROM THE HARD STREETS TO WHERE I’M STILL STRUGGLING TO MAINTAIN MY SANITY IN A MASQUERADE OF CHARACTERS(ex. haters, scoundrels, wolves, snakes, sconions, backstabbers, etc…..) SO WHAT HAPPEN TO TRUE TALENTS WITH NO STINGS ATTACH WHICH HAS NEVER EXISTED EVER FROM MANY STORIES IN THIS INDUSTRY. AS A CHILD 30 YEARS AGO I WANTED TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD FOR MY TALENTS BUT I CANNOT BELIEVE IN A FEW WEEKS I WILL BE RELOCATING TO LOS ANGELES TO FULFILL MY DESTINY AND TRY TO HELP GUIDE MANY DESERVING ARTISTS TO THEIR DESTINY.

       THERE’S BEEN SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE QUESTIONED ME ABOUT HOW I HAVE OVER 5,000 FRIENDS FROM MY PAGES AND IT QUITE SIMPLY; I WAS AN ADVENTUROUS PERSON FROM THE DAY ONE TIL NOW. I’VE TRAVELED MANY ROADS AND MET MANY INTERESTING PEOPLE WHO’VE EITHER BEEN MY FRIENDS, ASSOCIATES, COWORKERS, ENEMIES AND FRIENEMIES FROM ALL ASPECTS OF MY JOURNEY. I THANK GOD THAT I’M STILL HERE TO SAY THAT PROUDLY IN A SENSE OF THE WORLD’S JEALOUSY. SO NOW I FEEL GUILTY TO HAVE THIS LIFE WHICH I CAN SAY GOD HAS BLESSED ME TO OVERCOME MANY OBSTACLES TO ACHIEVE THE DREAM OF A LIFETIME. I GAVE MY WORD TO GOD THAT I HELP THOSE WHO REALLY NEED THEIR DESTINY FULFILLED BUT I KNOW THERE WILL BE MORE DANGER AWAITS ME IN THE SHADOW OF DEATH BUT I KNOW HE WILL PROTECT ME THROUGH IT. AS OF THIS WRITING I’VE BEEN CALLED SHADY, FRAUDALENT, PHONY FROM INDIVIDUALS EVEN THREATS FROM THE MOST UNUSUAL PEOPLE SUCH AS THE NATION OF ISLAM WHICH I NEVER DESERVED BUT ITS COOL.

        AS I END THIS PIECE I HOPE THIS WRITING CAN HELP OPEN EYES TO PEOPLE OF A REAL MAN NOT A SHIESTY MAN WHO’S OUT FOR GREED AND ALL FOR SELF CAUSE PERSONALLY I HAVE GOD ON MY SIDE AND WHO NEEDS THE FAKE SUBSTANCE OF THE WORLD. LORD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH AND GUIDANCE TO FULFILL MY DESTINY AND HELP THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELVES…….amen

Thursday, March 22, 2012

US

“Black folks need to quit tryin to keep this ongoing anmosity within ourselves which so played out. Black folks are always hating and talking so negative among us so who we really can trust in our own race. Now the movie, “Red Tails” comes out and everybody wanna know their history when there are millions of stories where we made a huge difference for our country. I don’t buy the stereotype nonse…n…se when we don’t even respect our own President who is black. Why celebrate the life of our moral fallen leaders when we don’t even live by their dreams and standards. Personally I don’t celebrate Dr. King’s birthday cause we have not understood what the dream is about and we still not unified as black people in AmeriKKKa even since those horrific times in our history. There are blacks who don’t even know the full speech of that day. We can’t even enjoy ourselves when our ignorance play a huge part in society’s downfall or we constantly blaming the whites for our faults and we need to admit to our mistakes. We can’t even unified as a race to help each other and when other races do it with no problems. We always running to church for a solution to the problem but the solution to the problems in our race is US point blank. Black folks need to wake up and see themselves in the mirror for who we really truly are. We are the endangered species today, tomorrow and the future if we don’t stand up for our own actions and teach our children about US.

IF YOU'RE PATRIOTIC!...........READ THIS!!

WHEN WE PLEDGE TO THE FLAG IT REPRESENTS US AS AMERICANS WHO WERE TAUGHT THE IMPORTANCE OF THE RED, WHITE AND BLUE. THE QUOTE “IN GOD WE TRUST” MEANS WE ONLY TRUST GOD WHEN HE’S NEVER LET US DOWN SO THINK TO YOURSELF DO WE TRUST GOD OR DO WE TRUST MAN(Da GOVERNMENT)?
        WHEN MY CHILDREN ARE NOT TAUGHT THE WAYS THAT SCHOOLS INFLUENCE OUR DECISION MAKING AS A CITIZEN OR THE POLITICAL PROCESS OF THIS HISTORICAL ELECTION. WE AS  AMERICANS DON’T EVEN STOP TO THINK THAT THE REAL CANDIDATE IS WHOM?A WOMAN OR A BLACK MAN? I DON’T HEAR ANY PATRIOTIC ISSUES THAT’S PLAQUED THIS NATION SINCE THE DAYS OF THE REAGAN ADMINISTRATION SUCH AS HOMELESSNESS, DRUGS, RACISM WHICH IS NOW A HOT TOPIC IN AMERICA.
            WHEN 9/11 OCCURRED IT WAS A CHANCE THE SHOW THE WORL WE ARE A COUNTRY FULL OF COMPASSION AND LOYALTY TO THE PEOPLE. BUT SINCE THAT TRAGIC DAY IN UNITED STATES HISTORY WE’VE EXPERIENCED WATCHING OUR COUNRTY CALLING PEOPLE OF ALL COLORS DURING HURRICANE KATRINA, “REFUGEES” FOR WE ARE BORN AMERICANS NOT BEIN TORN IN A DICTATORSHIP IN THIS COUNTRY. WE AS AMERICAN HAVE OUR OWN DICTATOR, ‘G.W. BUSH” WHO HAS PUT THIS GREAT NATION TO WHERE WE’LL BE EXPERIENCING THE GREAT DEPRESSION AFFECTS FOR THE NEXT 50 YEARS SO WE GOT A LONG ROAD AHEAD OF US.

US, part 2

“Now folks wanna vent on us but let’s take it back when we use to unify against Jim Crow laws and show the world we took a stand. Today we as black folks have no respect for ourselves especially look at our relationships which use to a strong foundation. We disrespect our women cause they don’t even respect themselves at times and there is NO sisterhood anyways. We as men disrespect ourselves when we go outside the box with our street credits then we constantly in the judicial systems as AmeriKKKa’s slaves. Our children are taught in a bogus a** educational system which has no sense to educate about HIV/AIDS in our own community. Now election year again so who we gonna vote for when our votes don’t count for nothing but a crooked numbers game. President Obama singing “Let’s Stay Together” for who’s enjoyment when he knows deep down this is his last term and probably the last time a black man to have that honor again. Yes I’m proud to be anti-AmeriKKKan cause I don’t see no changes within the black community and we don’t show what Dr. King’s legacy is about with all this haterism, envy and backstabbing. The black family structure is nothing but a pure joke cause the lessons of the past is nothing but lost history. The social media is nothing but a stereotypical plan to show how much we really have lost our morality and self-respect on all levels.”