Saturday, December 21, 2013
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Thursday, November 28, 2013
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
STAY OUTTA MY BUSINESS!!!!!!
"For the record I know you nosy individuals wanna know if I'm being paid for my work and here's my answer...........WELL IT'S FOR ME TO KNOW AND YOU TO KEEP DREAMING ABOUT IT!!! Do you think I 'm telling ANY of my business to you, I think you need to wake up to apologize! Now as Hollywood is concerned it's my home now and if you don't like it then so be it! No place taught me about this music business and the history of the entertainment industry which I have a lotta respect for. I will never bash this place for feeding me the TRUE knowledge and showing me the real deal of the business. The problem with a lot of people today who wants this fame, spotlight or whatever is that most of you aren't prepared for what our industry is made to be, and it won't change nothing for you period so get over it!! Now if you want to know more on my personal or professional business then go buy yourself a TV guide, and turn the channel because you've been disconnected, and stay outta my business dammit!!"
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Saturday, November 16, 2013
RIGHT ON! I AM A SURVIVOR
As I sit here in the Bubble, the computer lab at the LA Recording School in Hollywood, California and it has hit me that I made the biggest transition in my life without the major people in my life. I am so blessed to have positivity within my life now without the negative distractions and hoopla. I think you can get a rebirth once you leave the negativity and get more of a perspective in life. This year I lost the 2 most important factors in my life, my mother, Joyce Terrell, a wonderful woman who could be a bitch at times but deep down was very influential to mt training of music ears and how to conduct yourself as a gentlemen. My father, Herbert Hollins, was a charismatic man who taught me life, pride, style and just being a man and I never blamed him for anything because he did the best to acknowledge me that he loved me. This life we do not think about the importance of your loved ones till their gone. I've seen death, destruction of friendships, disrespecting of women, and how this world has changed in 3 decades and its been a helluva journey indeed. My life has been about survival on my own terms meaning even playing with death on occasions since I was 11.
What I am about to write is the realest emotion ever expressed from my heart. I've always hated myself growing up because I wasn't the guy with the girls and money but I survived without it but I did have a dark side. I became a scavenga at night by robbing and stealing from whatever to whomever if necessary. I fooled family members and friends to keep up a good image but I never allowed it near where I lay my head. I had crews of scavengas who did whatever from pimping to doing whatever to make that paper. The day I saw my best homie, Lee, get his head blown completely off it was the first of many wake up calls in my life. So there were many close calls that some don't even know about like I got shot in the chest and the flask in my coat caught the bullet so was it God or luck?? My journey saw things like betrayal in the most sickening way that I despise to hear the word but I saw women really digging these dudes with money then set them up for the paper which is sick to me and I wondered do they have a conscious. I have to say at the end of the day God always had my back throughout all this period so I survived it.
Now Love is a gross word to me because if you don't watch out it'll get cha all day everyday from family to friends. I am at the point in my life I love women but I don't trust no bitch period. A woman was made by God to be the backbone and overseer in the development of a strong foundation of the family with the right man. I saw 3 men; my 2 grandfathers and my father who were great men when it came to the women with honor, commitment and respect in my eyes. Now there are stories that I heard but they never showed me the ills that men do. Today I've had my heart broken in ways that makes me feel this way but I wonder if I was beating their ass would I be that man for these weak minded women. I am alone now since my best friend who gave me 2 gifts, a girl and a boy I claimed as my son since birth and I love him as my own. I feel God will break me down to the right woman is because I don't like the issues. Now for the record don't think men can handle the rebuild process of a relationship when they break the trust with their scorned lover. The relationship will not last because for one a woman will be more alert and put a man through complete hell because of his bullshit. I've had women accuse, punish, destroy and even left me for dead to prove a point for which in the end I survived it.
Today I have a more mature way of thinking and I see life in a different sense of tranquility. I rather be in my books and refocus on God instead of life's ills. My parents weren't the perfect couple but I feel that still had a bond but only God knows how they felt in their heart. I've survived many crazy scenarios in the streets of Norfolk, Virginia Beach, D.C., Montgomery County(MD), 30 counties of North Carolina and now Hollywood so can you imagine what I will tell you from own eyes. I am happy for once in my life because the Lord let me survive all the negatives pitfalls and the fake love games that gets really old these days. I had to get this out of my system and thank God for this amazing journey and for many more to come whether here on earth or in heaven. Thank you God for making a believer and Right On I'm still a survivor!
WHY DOES GOD ALLOW UNHAPPINESS IN OUR LIFE???
- NOW THE MAIN QUESTION IS WHY DOES GOD ALLOW UNHAPPINESS IN OUT LIFE WHETHER ITS OUR CAREER, FAMILY ISSUES BUT THE THE MAIN DEBATE IS......RELATIONSHIPS. TODAY WE ALL SEARCH FOR THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE WHO CAN FULFILL OUR NEEDS OF WORTH. MEN SAY WOMEN ARE BITCHES AND THEY TRIP TOO MUCH THEN WOMEN SAY MEN ARE ALL DOGS AND WE AIN'T SHIT. SO WHERE DOES GOD STAND IN ALL THIS CONFUSION?? FIRST OFF SOCIETY HAS FORGOT OUR MORALS AND RESPECT FOR OURSELVES IN RELATIONSHIPS. WE CAN GO BACK A HUNDRED YEARS CONSERVATIVE CHRISTIANS DID NOT BELIEVE IN DATING OR EVEN SHACKING UP UNLESS YOU WERE MARRIED. I WAS ONCE TOLD THET WHEN YOU GOT MARRIED BACK IN THE DAY THE COUPLE DIDN'T LIVE TOGETHER TIL THEY GOT MARRIED AND THEY HAD TO LEARN FROM EACH OTHER AT THAT POINT SO THAT'S WERE THE LONG TERM MARRIAGES WAS ABOUT WORKING TOGETHER AS ONE UNIT.TODAY WE FOCUS MORE ON THE LONLINESS INSTEAD OF WAITING FOR THE RIGHT PERSON TO COME ALONG WHICH IS A MYTH THESE DAYS. NOW LADIES IF YOU THINK MALE BASHING IS THE ANSWER SO TAKE A LOK INTO THE MIRROR AND STOP PICKING THE FELLAS WHO AREN'T ABOUT ANYTHING. IF YOU FEEL YOU GOT A GOOD MAN THEN HIT HIM WITH A FULL REPORT AND RELATIONSHIP APPLICATION INSTEAD OF USING YOUR GOODIES TO ENTRAP HIM. NOW FELLAS WE NEED TO REEVALUATE OURSELVES TO BE WHAT THE BIBLE STATES WE SHOULD BE AND THAT IS TO BE A REAL MAN. A MAN WHO HONORS HIS WOMAN DOES NOT HUMILIATE HER, DOWNGRADE HER, OR TREAT HER VIOLENTLY BUT HE NEEDS TO DEMOSTRATE HIS WORDS AND HIS DEEDS IN PUBLIC OR IN PRIVATE THAT HE CHERISHES AND LOVES HER.NOW YOU BE THE JUDGE TO THINK OF WHY UNHAPPINESS IS A CONSTANT DEBATE IN TODAY'S RELATIONSHIPS AND WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO TO SAVE YOUR RELATIONSHIP. FIRST OFF IF YOU DON'T CHOOSE A GOD-FEARING MATE THAN HOW CAN YOU IMAGINE UNHAPPINESS IF YOU HAVE THAT INVOLVED FROM THE BEGINNING. TO ALL THE LADIES WHO CONTINUE TO MALE BASH INSTEAD OF TRYIN TO SOLVE THE SOLUTION TO THE PROBLEM JUST TAKE A MOMENT AND THINK TO YOURSELF WHAT CAN i DO?????
MY LIVING TESTIMONY
- "My book is gonna be a best seller for what I have been dealing with throughout my life and the past 30+ months which saw my life go from a tumultuous marriage, jail time, homelessness, then to LA to lose your children's mother to a dreaded disease in D.C., then suffer mild stroke symptoms afterwards, then almost 8 months later I celebrated my birthday then 2 weeks later my mo"My book is gonna be a best seller for what I have been dealing with throughout my life and the past 30+ months which saw my life go from a tumultuous marriage, jail time, homelessness, then to LA to lose your children's mother to a dreaded disease in D.C., then suffer mild stroke symptoms afterwards, then almost 8 months later I celebrated my birthday then 2 weeks later my mother passed away without my acknowledgement till a month later from a cop who alerted me on FB. This summer I suffered congestive heart failure and went back to D.C. to walk right into jealousy, fakery, backstabbers, ignorants and selfish folks who said they love me was a LIE!!!! God showed me a sign to return to Los Angeles to finish what I started. This morning I registered for L.A. Recording School to pursue my associate and bachelor degrees in Entertainment Business then tonight I got a call that's gonna save my life!......NOW WHO SAYS GOD HASN'T BLESSING ME FOR HAVING SO MUCH FAITH DURING THIS CRAZY MOMENT IN MY LIFE. THANK YOU LORD FOR EVERYTHING YOU'VE SHOWN ME SINCE I WAS A CHILD.
THE SICKNESS OF LOVE, PART 1
NOW THIS NOTE COMES FROM THE DEEP PIT OF MY STOMACH AND I HAVE TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST. FELLAS, WE ALL KNOW WE CAN BE AS*****S TO OUR WOMEN BUT WHY A WOMAN HAS TO CARRY THAT CRAP TO ANOTHER MAN. LADIES, WHY HOLD ON TO OLD LUGGAGE AND PUT IT ON ANOTHER MAN AS HE'S THE ISSUE OF YOUR INSECURITY. I FIND IT AMAZING A COMEDIAN CAN WRITE A BOOK TO INSTRUCT A WOMAN TO THINK LIKE A MAN IS A PURE NO NO TO GOD IN MY OPINION. WHAT HAPPEN TO GOIN TO GOD FOR ADVICE? I FEEL ITS AN INSULT TO ASK A THERAPIST ABOUT HOW YOU DO YOUR RELATIONSHIP WHEN 90% OF THEM HAVEN'T EVEN GOT AN ANSWER TO THEIR OWN PROBLEMS. NOW WHEN A MAN SCREWS UP , HE GETS HIS BUSINESS EXPOSED WHETHER ITS FACEBOOK, TWITTER OR THE STREETS SO MAKES HER THINK THAT MAN SHOULD TAKE YOU BACK?? WHEN A WOMAN EXPOSES A MAN THEN THEY DROP THIS LAME LINE, "CAN YOU FORGIVE ME?" AND I'M LIKE ARE YOU KIDDING TO SAY THAT WHEN WE CAN'T GET THAT TYPE OF APOLOGY AND ITS NOT EVEN EASY. WHY DO WOMEN THINK OF PUTTING THEIR HANDS ON GUYS WHO WOULD FIGHT BACK BUT WHEN A CAT DOES IT, WOMEN TRY THIS CONCEPT OF THEY FEEL LOVED IF HE HIT ME....WTF!!! TODAY MEN AND WOMEN ARE BACKWARDS IN ANY RELATIONSHIP CAUSE OF TOO MUCH PAST EXPERIENCES WITH NO GODLY INFLUENCES FROM THE CHURCH, A PASTOR OR EVEN SOMEONE WHO CAN TELL YOU TRUTHFULLY. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TRUE LOVE UNLESS YOU WORK FOR IT. AS THE MORRIS DAY SONG SAYS, "LOVE IS A GAME, YOU GOTTA PLAY TO WIN OR YOU PLAY TO SURVIVE" AND THATS TRULY DEEP FROM AN ORIGINAL PLAYA. SO LADIES AND GENTLEMEN SIT DOWN AND THINK TO SELF DO YOU AND YOUR WOMEN TAKE YOUR ISSUES TO GOD INSTEAD OF SOCIAL NETWORKS AND REMEMBER A LOVING COUPLE THAT PRAYS TOGETHER STAYS TOGETHER FOREVER.
THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A BOY AND A MAN
A " BOY " imitates the movies, always trying to be a Mac
"MEN" posses the inner Strength 2 love a WOMAN Back
A "BOY" looks at your body,
When a "MAN" can cure your Soul
He knows that you have much more to offer, and with you he can GROW old !!
A "BOY" will ask to spend the night but a "MAN" wants to share your life!!
A "BOY" will leave you INSECURE while, you wonder where he is.
With a "MAN" you are always reassured!
Being a "MAN" he will always take care of his!!
"BOYS" give you moments, while a "MAN" brings you MEMORIES!!
A "MAN" values Things like TRUST & HONOR
And in YOU, He will always Believe In!
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Monday, September 9, 2013
Friday, September 6, 2013
The HOLLINS Family Curse, Part 1
This post is the hardest but truthful words from a person who've spent a quarter of a century researching where I come from and its been a roller coaster ride since I started. I realize folks in this family got this attitude that its about them when this name is screwed up due to the fact our forefathers were slaves who couldn't read nor write so the name is in many spelling parts. There is about 6 different spellings to the name so we all over the place as my grandfather told me if I ever research it it'll be discovered. Now I felt we are cursed through the secrets of our ancestors which some of you have special gifts from God like you can see the future in your vision or dreams. I bet money some of you had issues of depression because growing up you have cousins but no Hollins cousins which was crazy in your growth from a child to an adult. There are some of us been scarred by personal events and keep it to yourself which has caused you to be very protective and sensitive. Music has been a soothing comfort to us and its our talents that make us very unique. We, as Hollins can't be around each other too long before we have fights and issues among ourselves which cause isolation from all family. I have been threatened by the younger kids cause I say stuff that they can't believe but who is responsible for that nonsense? So the biggest question to my Hollins family is WHO ARE WE......REALLY??
A SCAVENGA'S PRAYER
MY PRAYER: As I look into the sky I'm very thankful to you Lord for giving me the gift to understand what my purpose in this life. Forgive those who've hated on me since I was a little boy because you gave the opportunity to shine despite my trials and tribulations. Thank you God for blessing me with 3 beautiful and intelligent teenage children(Shay, Domo & Diamond) for always understanding what I am about and their love keeps me motivated. Please forgive me for my sins that I've created and to those I've hurt during this journey in my life. I am so grateful to you Lord for showing me compassion and patience towards my fellow mankind even when I'm selfish and angered at times. Thank you for the many blessings even when I felt I didn't deserve it. Lord, I wanna thank you for showing me that you're real despite the collapse of my marriage, the mild stroke symptoms, homelessness, the congestive heart failure plus a heart scare recently, the traumatic losses of my kids' mother, and my parents but I am still here. I am forever merciful for what I've accomplished so far in my life and I'm not finish yet in your eyes. This is only a new beginning to chapters not even written yet.
In Jesus name, the Lord is My Shepherd............
In Jesus name, the Lord is My Shepherd............
HOW DO YOU MAKE LOVE TO A BLACK WOMAN
How Do You Make Love to a Black Woman?
How do you make love to a Black Woman?
Romantically and Patiently;
Take the time to make love to her mind.
Fulfill all her midnight wishes.
Cover her entire body with soft wet kisses.
Tell her, so that she will know!
There's no place on her body
Your tongue won't go.
And when you make love to a Black Woman, You love her real slow.
How do you make love to a Black Woman?
How do you make love to a Black Woman?
Passionately and Sincerely;
Let her sweetness become your weakness.
Do not use just your manhood, but include your ear.
Listen to the sweet sound of her moans
And see what you hear.
Feel the warmth and care of her loving embrace.
Place your mouth on hers and savor the taste.
How do you make love to a Black Woman?
How do you make love to a Black Woman?
Sensually and Honestly;
Say what you mean and mean what you say.
Tell her you love her,
More and more with each passing day.
Let all of her fantasies that dance in her head Become her moonlight reality When it's time to go to bed.
Mutual satisfaction is a lover's plan.
Love her 'cause you are in love with her.
She's your woman and you're her man.
Love your Black Woman with your Mind, Body and Soul.
She's the most precious gift on this Earth. She's worth her weight in gold.
How do you make love to a Black Woman?
There's one true way to start.
To make love to a Black Woman just give her all of your heart.
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